-Baptism-

Through reading the Book of Mormon, Teachings of the Presidents, attending Church and Prayer, I have my faith and belief coming back much quicker than I had anticipated. I do, however, keep thinking of the phrase, "Easy come, easy go" and I'm praying, hoping that this is not a phase.

From my experiences over the past 8 days, I cannot see it being a phase. Quite the contrary. I can see myself living the lifestyle, attending Church, worshiping God and, most importantly, knowing that Joseph is a true prophet, and that the Book of Mormon is true.

It is very early in my journey to consider such a drastic move, but I do sit here thinking about what exactly it means to be Baptized. From the Book of Mormon, as explained in 3 Nephi 11, it is a sacred 'ritual' in which a person becomes the child of God. Repenting from their sins and living a life of purity.

In theory, this is something I would like to do. In reality, when do I do it? Does the decision to be baptized come from knowing the Book of Mormon is true? Or is it something I can complete in my journey to gain that knowledge?

I'm sure you can see the confusion I'm facing. I am keeping in mind of how long this journey will take and I'm not expecting immediate answers.

The answer just came to me. I have to keep on praying, keep on reading, attending Church and the answer will come when the time is right.

Well, if only all questions were that easy to answer.

A discussion I recently had with Melodie about our future children was in relation to Baptism. For me, I felt like I was baptized into a Church, not really knowing what direction to take from the age of 2. Wasn't my decision, wasn't something of which I had 'approved' of, if that makes sense? How could I truly follow that Church if I, as a person, as a Child of God, did not have a say?

I spoke with Melodie about Baptism in regards to future children and my opinion to NOT have them baptized at birth. Melodie educated me in the fact that within the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, children are not baptized until 8 years of age. This astounded me.

It only proved to me, furthermore, that if there were any answers to be found out there, going through THIS Church would be the correct way.

Everything the Church stands for makes so much sense. Does that mean I know that it is true? No, I don't think so. But, I definitely think I'm on the right track. Only time will tell whether or not Baptism is right for me.

The more I write about the subject of "Baptism" the more I realise of how much of a touchy topic it can be. People of the Church had told me of people being Baptized for the wrong reasons. I know I'm not in this to please Melodie as such, and/or to convert based on our Marriage, If being Baptized and converting happens, I know it will be because of my Beliefs and knowledge.

Another thing that came to me was Baptism and attending Church. When I have attended, it has only been for the first hour as I saw the 'classes' to be a little daunting, especially as I would have been split from Mel. I didn't have my 'crutch' to lean on for support and I didn't want to say the wrong things, or make a fool of myself, et cetera.

Would it be 'wrong' to go to these classes having not being baptized?

For those of you who read this, if you are a member of the Church of Latter-Day Saints and believe you can contribute to my journey, then please... Feel free to leave behind comments =)