Well, my day started with readings of the 'Teachings' on the bus on the way to work this morning. I find it very calming to read something of this nature, rather than a fiction book. It really gets the mind working and waking up!
I haven't read this book for a few days, only because I have taken in so much over the past week, I needed time to process it, and to reflect on it.
While talking with Melodie during the day, I got the sense that she was a little worried towards my new-found 'hobby'. She was ecstatic and full of joy at how far I have come in such a short time, but she was also worried that people would try to sway me from the truth. At this point, having read what I have read, and knowing what I know, as well as NOT knowing what I CAN know, I can see this journey taking a life-time... Literally.
What I mean, is that no matter what someone says, or what signs point me AWAY from LDS, I know that I have more to find out and to explore. Melodie knows well that when I want to do something, I'm not going to give up without a fight. I guess that's the stubbornness in me.
After speaking with Mel about this particular topic, I took into account what she had said. Obviously, she is one who has been on this journey for a much, much longer time than I have. I thought about it, and thought of what kind of objects could be thrown in my path. Or what could lead me away from living life by the gospel!?
I will be honest and say that there aren't many I could think of off the top of my head. Already, I see that God's power is much stronger than Satan's as God, I believe, played a part in bringing me, and Melodie, together. Now, I would like to see Satan do better than THAT!
However, as I said, I took into account what Melodie was telling me, and decided the only way to know, was to ask. My lunchtime prayer was devoted to asking the question, "how do I know if I am being taken away from the path?" I wasn't expecting an answer, because I thought I already had it.
I got home to Manly at 5pm and was waiting for Mum to pick me up. She called to say she'd be a little late, so I took that opportunity to read more of the 'Teachings'. I put on my headphones, opened the book, listened and read chapter 4. About half way through the chapter, I saw what I was looking for.
Chapter 4, Page 62 - "The wisdom of the Lord is greater than the cunning of the devil"
As I read that sentence over and over again, I noticed exactly what it was. The discussion I had with Melodie earlier was a bit all over the place, but this is what I was trying to get across. In my head and, more importantly, in my heart, I know where I am heading. I am so intrigued, so enlightened by this journey that, not one single thing can prevent me from reaching what I want out of it. Yes, I do know what I want out of it, but that will come later in the blog.
So what I got out of this so far was, a simple talk with Melodie really got me thinking hard about the devil's work and how to avoid it. I asked a question during my prayer, and it was given to me that afternoon. If only all my questions were answered that quickly.
Moving on, I had an appointment with the Elders at the Church in Harbord. It was set for 6:30pm and they didn't give me many details about what was to happen. They told me it was a tour of the Church and a short DVD. I drove to the Church and got their right on 6:30. Elder Modlik and Elder Lord were there to greet me which was cool.
It was youth night (?) so there were a few kids around. I walked in to see Bishop Wolfgramm there too which was a total shock for me. He seemed really happy and excited to see me there. I wasn't sure if he'd even remember who I was, but he did make comments relating back to our wedding and did ask how Melodie was. Of course, I sinned and lied to the Bishop by saying "she's doing great!" (haha!).
The Bishop was kind enough to 'tag-along' and later stated that this was "much more important than looking after the kids", only because his right-hand man was there to look out for them. I took a lot out of his statement. He is a man who I have met on only a few occasions, but also had the pleasure of his services through marrying me and Melodie. I had never actually had a chat with him though and was extremely glad that he was there.
We began the tour in the hallway of the Church, where we discussed my experiences over the past week. I told them that Melodie and I had read Alma 34 and 32 in that order and they agreed that she had definitely made a wise choice. Having read and understood those chapters, I can see why they made that remark.
We went into the chapel itself and said a prayer together. We talked of the peace and calmness within this room and I shared the experience of those exact things that I felt on Sunday. We went to the front of the Church to the Sacrament table and they explained to me how it was the most important part of the Church. I was never really sure of what Sacrament really was. From my old days of trying to study religion, I thought it was sort of like paying respect to Jesus by eating the bread which symbolizes his body, and drinking wine which symbolizes his blood. The Elders explained to me that, throughout the week, sins are made. No body is perfect. But, Sacrament is a part of the week when you can re-ignite the covenant made with God at Baptism.
This in itself was confusing, because I wasn't sure how to take it. Baptism is the most cherished, and sacred of all processes within the Church as is my understanding and the Elders went on to tell me that EVERY single member of the Church will sin during the coarse of the week, therefore it's important to attend sacrament. But is it really impossible to go through life by not sinning? Thats what I want to know! Even to go through a month!?
Bishop brought up the fact that there is no cross displayed anywhere within the Church. I told him how I had learned that the hard way. When Melodie first came to Australia, we were getting ready for our first day at Church together. Now, I know this area preeettty well, so when Melodie said that the Church was on Harbord road, I knew exactly where it was. We jumped in a cab and headed for Church. Upon arriving at the Church I said "we're here!" and we jumped out. I could tell Mel had quite a confused, puzzled look on her face. I asked her what was wrong and she said "There's a cross on the building, thats strange". Meanwhile, I'm thinking to myself, 'Uh, yeah, what'd you expect?' Melodie then went on to explain that, as a LDS, they celebrate the LIFE of christ. Not the death. Therefore, there are no crosses. Haha, I thought I'd share that with you because I felt like a tool at that time. I'm just happy I know why NOW!
Anyway... We left the chapel, the most important room in the Church, and they took me to the SECOND most important room in the Church. Not telling me exactly what it was, I walked in and there was a glass screen on the wall to the left. Behind that glass wall was a set of stairs leading down to a tiled area. Immediately, I knew it was the room for Baptism. Not that you had to be a genious. It was practically and over-sized bath tub.
We spoke of the importance of Baptism and a picture depicting Jesus being Baptized by John the Baptist. We also spoke of what Baptism was all about. Being reborn into a life with minimal sin. Making a covenant, or a promise, with the Lord. And accepting the Holy Ghost into our lives. Bishop went on to explain that the Holy Ghost never leaves our side. Although, we may leave IT to go off into a World of sin, as everyone does at some point each week. But, it never leaves us. That brought almost an eerie feeling to me, but one of excitement nevertheless.
Elder Modlik brought in a TV and it was time to watch the DVD they had for me. It was called "The Restoration" and it was a short 20 minute DVD about Joseph, his childhood, his vision of the two personages as well as later in his life after translating the plates of Moroni.
It was a very straight forward DVD and, afterwards, Elder Lord asked me what I thought of it. I didn't want to be offensive, but I told him how I felt. I felt that the DVD was cinematic crap. I felt that reading the Book of Mormon, as well as the Teachings gave me a feeling like no other. I did appreciate the DVD as it is another way to view, or to learn, of the History. But I got much more out of reading, than I did of the DVD. The three people sitting beside me seemed to acknowledge and accept my answer for what it was- not offensive towards the efforts of showing the DVD, but 'committed' and truthful in the way that I had told them how I had felt.
Obviously, the Elders thought it were time to set a Baptism goal. What I thought this meant was setting goals to get to Baptism (Such as, attending Church, Praying, reading and so on...) when in actual fact, they wanted me to keep a date in mind to BE Baptized. This was not something I wanted to commit to, because I didn't feel the time would be right.
WARNING: WHAT COMES NEXT MAY SHOCK YOU.
I have thought about it over the past week and have reflected on what I have learned, and what still needs to be learned.
Just today, I could admit... No, exclaim, to Melodie that I DO believe in God, furthermore, which I did not add at the time, but I DO believe in the Book of Mormon, and that I DO believe that Joseph Smith was a prophet of God. I DO believe that Joseph had a vision from the two personages and that he DID translate the Book of Mormon. Is this a book that he could have purely written by his own wits. No, I do not believe so.
I WANT to be Baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.
Was that a shock? Were you expecting that? My apologies if you were eating at the time, and choked a little as you gasped for air from disbelief.
To clarify, I want to be Baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, because, I do believe in the above mentioned.
Today has been a remarkable day for my journey. A prayer was answered. I could say I Believe in God. And, I can say with a sincere heart, and complete intent, that I want to be Baptized.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Alma 32
I have found something with this whole experience that I haven't felt before. First of all, this blog. I'm finding that I DO actually have things to write, and I have new experiences and feelings to share day in/day out.
I have also felt a sense of 'peace' when doing anything related to this journey. Praying, reading the 'Teachings' and the Book of Mormon, attending Church, speaking with members and Elders and my readings with Melodie at night.
The readings with Melodie are very important to me, as they are to her, I am sure. Not only does it give me a chance at praying out loud to somebody else, but it also gives us our time to learn and grow together. I'm blessed to have such a wife with knowledge and beliefs of someone well beyond her years. Reading, studying and praying gives me a chance to reflect afterwards, however, after our readings I am able to immediately relay what I got out of it. How the message got through to me, how I feel at that time, and what I think it holds for the future, and so on. Having that someone there to also give their perspective is a priceless asset in this journey.
A few nights ago, after our last reading together, I asked her to recommend a chapter for us to share the following night. Unfortunately, due to our other commitments, we could not read together until this evening. I chose not to read this chapter (Alma 32) until we had done so together. And, I think that was the right choice. Melodie definitely has an extremely good sense of where I am at in my journey, and what I have learned from our readings has flowed on so well, that it makes complete sense. She never ceases to amaze me.
Alma 32
What a perfect time to read such a chapter.
There were 4 main points I took from this chapter and all of these points I could compare to me. So far, I have found that to be a common factor through everything I've read. I can compare it to my own life and feelings which makes the journey a lot easier to grasp and enjoy!
Firstly, one's own financial situation is not taken into account by the Lord. He who has faith can be of 'poor' or 'rich'- The Lord does not judge on this.
Also, to worship the Lord does not mean to go to Church on Sunday. It is much more than that and as I put it to people wanting to lose weight, "It's a lifestyle choice" so to speak.
Furthermore, to have knowledge is one thing, but it is not all things. Every single member of any religion throughout the whole World has unanswered questions when it comes to their own religion, beliefs and God. Questions that cannot, and will not be answered in our lifetime on Earth, let alone life times to come after us.
Finally, taking the step to 'know' and to continue on the path in a manner of such that you yourself can retell your testimony.
Whether you be rich or poor, fat or thin, American or Australian, the Lord does not judge on any of these. Just because society has labeled a particular minority as 'outcasts', this does not mean that the Lord will do the same. I found the relevance of the opening to this chapter to today's society to be a real 'hit in the face'. It woke me up to see what kind of World we really live in. In a technological age where bullying of minority groups takes place through forms such as:
In today's society, we are facing the highest rates of depression and suicide ever seen, because we, as a people like to judge those who are 'beneath' us. And we let them know exactly what we think.
Fortunately, there is at least one person, one man, who will not judge, will not put us down and will not neglect us. The Holy Father, creator of all beings, will always be at your side throughout all time.
Now, these 'poor' people were cast out from their synagogues based on finances. They were cast out by the very priests who once would have accepted them, but now do not. Church is one of the last places I would expect to see this happen. In today's society, I would expect it to happen in a restaurant, in a cinema and even in a cornerstore. Unfortunately, that's the World which I see each and every day. However, to think of someone being cast out of their Church based on the above reason (poverty) is a disgrace and a shock. The one place that someone experiencing sever poverty can go, is now shut off. I am pretty sure this is not the message that the Holy Father and his son were trying to portray.
To go to Church on Sunday, for me, is to enter the Holy house and pay respect to God and Jesus. However, to think that is merely all we have to do to respect the great sacrifice, we would be kidding ourselves.
(Behold I say unto you, do ye suppose that ye cannot worship God save it be in your synagogues only? And moreover, I would ask, do ye suppose that ye must not worship God only once in a week? Alma 32:10-11)
As I have said, it is about taking on a lifestyle change. To worship God, does not mean to 'do a little bit here, and a little bit there'. No, it is a 24 hour a day, 7 day a week, life-long commitment that one makes to not only himself/herself, but to God in all his power.
When I started my journey, I prayed only once a night and that was it. Recently, I have been finding myself waking up and praying before I do anything else. It's refreshing and a great way to wake up in the morning. Not only that, but it puts me in the right mind for the day ahead. Around midday, while sitting at my desk- usually after speaking with Melodie- I will say another short prayer, as well as keeping my night time prayer.
It's not only prayer that helps me to worship God on a daily basis, but it's the little things that allow me to know I'm changing for the better. The simple things like choosing my words wisely and not swearing, not being disrespectful to other people and so on.
I said in my very first post that my religious beliefs diminished based on the facts I had and the lack of tangible objects to help me. And, as I have stated just a few paragraphs ago, not one person in this whole entire World has all the answers they are looking for.
Knowledge is one of those things that will tend to end a journey prematurely. If one person did have the answers to each and every question in an exam, then the journey would be over before it began. The result would be there before pen has been put to paper.
Not having the answers to everything leaves more exploring and more questioning for a person to do. That, to me, sums it up. If I went into this journey expecting to find an answer to each and EVERY question I had, then I know I would be doing the wrong thing. I know, as of right now that there are questions I have now that I will take to the grave. I still won't have all the answers.
But, it's not about knowing. It's about having the belief and faith. Those two things are the simple things that allows us as humans to explore and to grow. Not only to grow in a spiritual/religious way, but in any way. To think if someone had absolutely no faith, or belief, in themselves, then what were they going to achieve? They could have all the knowledge in the World, but, if they lack the belief going into a testing/exam environment, then they have already failed. Too many people follow their heads as I have done for so many years. It's time to open the heart and let it lead.
Finally, the leap of faith *PUN INTENDED*. Making the decision to take that journey and fulfill it. Not knowing what will come of it in the end, but nevertheless, putting yourself out there and reaping all the rewards along the way. Alma described it best by using the analogy of the seed. You can buy almost any kind of seed of any tree that you like. If you neglect that seed and think that it'll grow on its own, then you will come out with nothing but a waste of time (hopefully a lesson will be learnt the first time!).
However, you can buy a seed for an oak tree, lets say. Now, you know what an oak tree looks like. It's about yay high, with so many branches and it's this particular colour, but, your tree may stand a little bit shorter than the rest. It may have a few more branches and the colour could be slightly different. You don't know the FULL outcome until you plant it. But it doesn't stop there.
You need to make sure the soil and fertilizer is right and that there are no objects obscuring the roots
(You need to make sure the founding reasons you're taking this journey are for the right reasons and that no 3rd party will stand in your way of the truth).
You need to constantly water and nurture the plant through all stages
(Meaning you will need to study the history of LDS, you will need to study the Book of Mormon, you will need to pray and attend Church.)
You will need to, as the tree grows, trim the branches and adjust the environment around the tree
(You will need to, if it's right for you, be baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of LDS)
Finally, as the tree fully matures, you need to pay constant attention to its health and surroundings for the rest of its life.
(You will need to continue living your life by the gospel every day. Rereading scriptures and teaching others of what joy and happiness you have found)
Melodie, the members and The Elders all told me at the very beginning, before I even started my journey was,
"By doing what you're doing, you will benefit" (Basically)
I guess what they were trying to tell me is that, when I do finish the 'Teachings of the Presidents" and the Book of Mormon, and after I attend Church, then I will find that nothing bad will come of it. In fact, quite the opposite- My life will be more enriched by my determination to find the Truth. Not only as an individual but as a team and as a family with my Wife.
I can't wait for tomorrow.
I have also felt a sense of 'peace' when doing anything related to this journey. Praying, reading the 'Teachings' and the Book of Mormon, attending Church, speaking with members and Elders and my readings with Melodie at night.
The readings with Melodie are very important to me, as they are to her, I am sure. Not only does it give me a chance at praying out loud to somebody else, but it also gives us our time to learn and grow together. I'm blessed to have such a wife with knowledge and beliefs of someone well beyond her years. Reading, studying and praying gives me a chance to reflect afterwards, however, after our readings I am able to immediately relay what I got out of it. How the message got through to me, how I feel at that time, and what I think it holds for the future, and so on. Having that someone there to also give their perspective is a priceless asset in this journey.
A few nights ago, after our last reading together, I asked her to recommend a chapter for us to share the following night. Unfortunately, due to our other commitments, we could not read together until this evening. I chose not to read this chapter (Alma 32) until we had done so together. And, I think that was the right choice. Melodie definitely has an extremely good sense of where I am at in my journey, and what I have learned from our readings has flowed on so well, that it makes complete sense. She never ceases to amaze me.
Alma 32
What a perfect time to read such a chapter.
There were 4 main points I took from this chapter and all of these points I could compare to me. So far, I have found that to be a common factor through everything I've read. I can compare it to my own life and feelings which makes the journey a lot easier to grasp and enjoy!
Firstly, one's own financial situation is not taken into account by the Lord. He who has faith can be of 'poor' or 'rich'- The Lord does not judge on this.
Also, to worship the Lord does not mean to go to Church on Sunday. It is much more than that and as I put it to people wanting to lose weight, "It's a lifestyle choice" so to speak.
Furthermore, to have knowledge is one thing, but it is not all things. Every single member of any religion throughout the whole World has unanswered questions when it comes to their own religion, beliefs and God. Questions that cannot, and will not be answered in our lifetime on Earth, let alone life times to come after us.
Finally, taking the step to 'know' and to continue on the path in a manner of such that you yourself can retell your testimony.
Whether you be rich or poor, fat or thin, American or Australian, the Lord does not judge on any of these. Just because society has labeled a particular minority as 'outcasts', this does not mean that the Lord will do the same. I found the relevance of the opening to this chapter to today's society to be a real 'hit in the face'. It woke me up to see what kind of World we really live in. In a technological age where bullying of minority groups takes place through forms such as:
- E-mails.
- Cellular phones.
- Social netoworking sites, and;
- Blogs, plus many more.
In today's society, we are facing the highest rates of depression and suicide ever seen, because we, as a people like to judge those who are 'beneath' us. And we let them know exactly what we think.
Fortunately, there is at least one person, one man, who will not judge, will not put us down and will not neglect us. The Holy Father, creator of all beings, will always be at your side throughout all time.
Now, these 'poor' people were cast out from their synagogues based on finances. They were cast out by the very priests who once would have accepted them, but now do not. Church is one of the last places I would expect to see this happen. In today's society, I would expect it to happen in a restaurant, in a cinema and even in a cornerstore. Unfortunately, that's the World which I see each and every day. However, to think of someone being cast out of their Church based on the above reason (poverty) is a disgrace and a shock. The one place that someone experiencing sever poverty can go, is now shut off. I am pretty sure this is not the message that the Holy Father and his son were trying to portray.
To go to Church on Sunday, for me, is to enter the Holy house and pay respect to God and Jesus. However, to think that is merely all we have to do to respect the great sacrifice, we would be kidding ourselves.
(Behold I say unto you, do ye suppose that ye cannot worship God save it be in your synagogues only? And moreover, I would ask, do ye suppose that ye must not worship God only once in a week? Alma 32:10-11)
As I have said, it is about taking on a lifestyle change. To worship God, does not mean to 'do a little bit here, and a little bit there'. No, it is a 24 hour a day, 7 day a week, life-long commitment that one makes to not only himself/herself, but to God in all his power.
When I started my journey, I prayed only once a night and that was it. Recently, I have been finding myself waking up and praying before I do anything else. It's refreshing and a great way to wake up in the morning. Not only that, but it puts me in the right mind for the day ahead. Around midday, while sitting at my desk- usually after speaking with Melodie- I will say another short prayer, as well as keeping my night time prayer.
It's not only prayer that helps me to worship God on a daily basis, but it's the little things that allow me to know I'm changing for the better. The simple things like choosing my words wisely and not swearing, not being disrespectful to other people and so on.
I said in my very first post that my religious beliefs diminished based on the facts I had and the lack of tangible objects to help me. And, as I have stated just a few paragraphs ago, not one person in this whole entire World has all the answers they are looking for.
Knowledge is one of those things that will tend to end a journey prematurely. If one person did have the answers to each and every question in an exam, then the journey would be over before it began. The result would be there before pen has been put to paper.
Not having the answers to everything leaves more exploring and more questioning for a person to do. That, to me, sums it up. If I went into this journey expecting to find an answer to each and EVERY question I had, then I know I would be doing the wrong thing. I know, as of right now that there are questions I have now that I will take to the grave. I still won't have all the answers.
But, it's not about knowing. It's about having the belief and faith. Those two things are the simple things that allows us as humans to explore and to grow. Not only to grow in a spiritual/religious way, but in any way. To think if someone had absolutely no faith, or belief, in themselves, then what were they going to achieve? They could have all the knowledge in the World, but, if they lack the belief going into a testing/exam environment, then they have already failed. Too many people follow their heads as I have done for so many years. It's time to open the heart and let it lead.
Finally, the leap of faith *PUN INTENDED*. Making the decision to take that journey and fulfill it. Not knowing what will come of it in the end, but nevertheless, putting yourself out there and reaping all the rewards along the way. Alma described it best by using the analogy of the seed. You can buy almost any kind of seed of any tree that you like. If you neglect that seed and think that it'll grow on its own, then you will come out with nothing but a waste of time (hopefully a lesson will be learnt the first time!).
However, you can buy a seed for an oak tree, lets say. Now, you know what an oak tree looks like. It's about yay high, with so many branches and it's this particular colour, but, your tree may stand a little bit shorter than the rest. It may have a few more branches and the colour could be slightly different. You don't know the FULL outcome until you plant it. But it doesn't stop there.
You need to make sure the soil and fertilizer is right and that there are no objects obscuring the roots
(You need to make sure the founding reasons you're taking this journey are for the right reasons and that no 3rd party will stand in your way of the truth).
You need to constantly water and nurture the plant through all stages
(Meaning you will need to study the history of LDS, you will need to study the Book of Mormon, you will need to pray and attend Church.)
You will need to, as the tree grows, trim the branches and adjust the environment around the tree
(You will need to, if it's right for you, be baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of LDS)
Finally, as the tree fully matures, you need to pay constant attention to its health and surroundings for the rest of its life.
(You will need to continue living your life by the gospel every day. Rereading scriptures and teaching others of what joy and happiness you have found)
Melodie, the members and The Elders all told me at the very beginning, before I even started my journey was,
"By doing what you're doing, you will benefit" (Basically)
I guess what they were trying to tell me is that, when I do finish the 'Teachings of the Presidents" and the Book of Mormon, and after I attend Church, then I will find that nothing bad will come of it. In fact, quite the opposite- My life will be more enriched by my determination to find the Truth. Not only as an individual but as a team and as a family with my Wife.
I can't wait for tomorrow.
Monday, September 28, 2009
P.S.
If some of my blogs seem a little all over the place, then you know how I feel inside my head! I'm not trying to make it more confusing than it already is haha!
-Baptism-
Through reading the Book of Mormon, Teachings of the Presidents, attending Church and Prayer, I have my faith and belief coming back much quicker than I had anticipated. I do, however, keep thinking of the phrase, "Easy come, easy go" and I'm praying, hoping that this is not a phase.
From my experiences over the past 8 days, I cannot see it being a phase. Quite the contrary. I can see myself living the lifestyle, attending Church, worshiping God and, most importantly, knowing that Joseph is a true prophet, and that the Book of Mormon is true.
It is very early in my journey to consider such a drastic move, but I do sit here thinking about what exactly it means to be Baptized. From the Book of Mormon, as explained in 3 Nephi 11, it is a sacred 'ritual' in which a person becomes the child of God. Repenting from their sins and living a life of purity.
In theory, this is something I would like to do. In reality, when do I do it? Does the decision to be baptized come from knowing the Book of Mormon is true? Or is it something I can complete in my journey to gain that knowledge?
I'm sure you can see the confusion I'm facing. I am keeping in mind of how long this journey will take and I'm not expecting immediate answers.
The answer just came to me. I have to keep on praying, keep on reading, attending Church and the answer will come when the time is right.
Well, if only all questions were that easy to answer.
A discussion I recently had with Melodie about our future children was in relation to Baptism. For me, I felt like I was baptized into a Church, not really knowing what direction to take from the age of 2. Wasn't my decision, wasn't something of which I had 'approved' of, if that makes sense? How could I truly follow that Church if I, as a person, as a Child of God, did not have a say?
I spoke with Melodie about Baptism in regards to future children and my opinion to NOT have them baptized at birth. Melodie educated me in the fact that within the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, children are not baptized until 8 years of age. This astounded me.
It only proved to me, furthermore, that if there were any answers to be found out there, going through THIS Church would be the correct way.
Everything the Church stands for makes so much sense. Does that mean I know that it is true? No, I don't think so. But, I definitely think I'm on the right track. Only time will tell whether or not Baptism is right for me.
The more I write about the subject of "Baptism" the more I realise of how much of a touchy topic it can be. People of the Church had told me of people being Baptized for the wrong reasons. I know I'm not in this to please Melodie as such, and/or to convert based on our Marriage, If being Baptized and converting happens, I know it will be because of my Beliefs and knowledge.
Another thing that came to me was Baptism and attending Church. When I have attended, it has only been for the first hour as I saw the 'classes' to be a little daunting, especially as I would have been split from Mel. I didn't have my 'crutch' to lean on for support and I didn't want to say the wrong things, or make a fool of myself, et cetera.
Would it be 'wrong' to go to these classes having not being baptized?
For those of you who read this, if you are a member of the Church of Latter-Day Saints and believe you can contribute to my journey, then please... Feel free to leave behind comments =)
From my experiences over the past 8 days, I cannot see it being a phase. Quite the contrary. I can see myself living the lifestyle, attending Church, worshiping God and, most importantly, knowing that Joseph is a true prophet, and that the Book of Mormon is true.
It is very early in my journey to consider such a drastic move, but I do sit here thinking about what exactly it means to be Baptized. From the Book of Mormon, as explained in 3 Nephi 11, it is a sacred 'ritual' in which a person becomes the child of God. Repenting from their sins and living a life of purity.
In theory, this is something I would like to do. In reality, when do I do it? Does the decision to be baptized come from knowing the Book of Mormon is true? Or is it something I can complete in my journey to gain that knowledge?
I'm sure you can see the confusion I'm facing. I am keeping in mind of how long this journey will take and I'm not expecting immediate answers.
The answer just came to me. I have to keep on praying, keep on reading, attending Church and the answer will come when the time is right.
Well, if only all questions were that easy to answer.
A discussion I recently had with Melodie about our future children was in relation to Baptism. For me, I felt like I was baptized into a Church, not really knowing what direction to take from the age of 2. Wasn't my decision, wasn't something of which I had 'approved' of, if that makes sense? How could I truly follow that Church if I, as a person, as a Child of God, did not have a say?
I spoke with Melodie about Baptism in regards to future children and my opinion to NOT have them baptized at birth. Melodie educated me in the fact that within the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, children are not baptized until 8 years of age. This astounded me.
It only proved to me, furthermore, that if there were any answers to be found out there, going through THIS Church would be the correct way.
Everything the Church stands for makes so much sense. Does that mean I know that it is true? No, I don't think so. But, I definitely think I'm on the right track. Only time will tell whether or not Baptism is right for me.
The more I write about the subject of "Baptism" the more I realise of how much of a touchy topic it can be. People of the Church had told me of people being Baptized for the wrong reasons. I know I'm not in this to please Melodie as such, and/or to convert based on our Marriage, If being Baptized and converting happens, I know it will be because of my Beliefs and knowledge.
Another thing that came to me was Baptism and attending Church. When I have attended, it has only been for the first hour as I saw the 'classes' to be a little daunting, especially as I would have been split from Mel. I didn't have my 'crutch' to lean on for support and I didn't want to say the wrong things, or make a fool of myself, et cetera.
Would it be 'wrong' to go to these classes having not being baptized?
For those of you who read this, if you are a member of the Church of Latter-Day Saints and believe you can contribute to my journey, then please... Feel free to leave behind comments =)
Sunday, September 27, 2009
My first day at Church.
I have been to Church (LDS) a couple of times before, but at the request of Melodie. I guess, because of my frame of mind at the time, it was more of a chore, and not really wanting to be there- except to be there for Melodie. On other occasions, excuses as to why I shouldn't go to Church kept arising, and I could see the disappointment in her eyes. It cut me deep, but I knew she loved me for who I was anyway. Knowing I wasn't a member of the Church.
Today's experience brought out a lot of nerves. As I have said before (again), by not being a member, I felt very intimidated. I felt welcomed, but at the same time, I didn't.
I had organized a ride with Paul, a member of the Church, and he was set to pick me up at 8:45 for a 9am start. Knowing that his 'late entrance' style was something to be weary of, I waited around until 9:15am. Finally he rocked up and we set off to add another chapter to my blog!!
When we reached the Harbord Ward, they were in the middle of sacrament. The Elders were at the entrance to greet us and we waited outside until sacrament was over. While it was going on, we whispered under our breath to each other. Mainly at the expense of Paul and his lack of strength when it comes to moving houses, ha-ha!
Sacrament finished and we went inside to sit. Paul went to the first door (at the front of the chapel), and I kind of wandered to the back and I said, "Where are you going man?” he said "Come sit in here!" Obviously I had been told. We went in and sat about 4 rows from the front! Not where I was hoping we'd sit, but I was cool with that. As I walked in, Bishop Wolfgramm (The man who married me and Melodie) acknowledged my presence with a smile and a nod of the head. To me that was a good sign of Welcoming and Acceptance. As well as a friendly 'Hello'. Immediately, I felt comfortable. I wasn't the Member's boyfriend/husband who was dragged along to Church. Instead, I was the Member's Husband who took it upon himself to make the effort to appreciate what she held so close to her. That was a feeling like no other!
Being that today is Sunday, September 27, 2009, today was the day that Member’s of the Church share with other’s their ‘knowing’ of the Book of Mormon and the words of God- Their testament.
Because we arrived late, we walked in to a talk given by a young (maybe 15 year old) girl. She was explaining the dress-code of the Mormon Church. As Melodie can tell you, the ‘old’ me would make fun of her ‘pregnant ladies’ dresses and her dress sense in general. This was obviously from my own ignorance. This young girl also went on to speak of, but not in length, grooming styles. What not to wear, how not to have your hair. So on and so forth. For me, the understanding that I took away is as follows: The idea behind our bodies being a temple exists from the belief that, before we were born into these bodies, we were once children of God, in spirit form. The temple is to be treated just like that! Would you walk into a physical temple with a bottle of alcohol? Would you walk in under the influence of drugs? Would you walk into a temple showing as much skin as possible, or with tight fitting clothes? No, of course you wouldn’t as that would be greatly disrespectful. So, why would YOU treat YOUR OWN TEMPLE with the same disregard to respect? Your temple must be sacred to your spirit. At this time, I think of materialistic things I hold/held close to me. The best example I can think of is back in my younger days when I first started driving and bought my first car. That car represented freedom to me. To be able to go wherever I liked, whenever I liked. I had certain rules about my car. There was to be no smoking in the car as this led to a crusty, stale smell which I did not want. The car was to be checked regularly in regards to the engine, the tires et cetera. The fuel type used was to be the highest quality to ensure optimal performance. These are just a few examples.
Once getting out of the car, I would light a cigarette, and eat McDonalds. Not necessarily in that order. But that, alone, is something which came to me at that point today. If I’m willing to treat my most prized possession in that fashion, then why not my temple?
I can see why I was hanging off the every word that everyone said today. Why? Because, unlike the other times I had come to Church, today I understood it. It was meaning something to me. It was creating questions inside of me that I had never before thought of asking. I mean, this is the most basic stuff told to me by everyday members. I was definitely getting something out of it.
The second speaker was an older lady of Tongan descent. I couldn’t help but think of how she reminded me of so many older Polynesians I have met. The language barrier still deems to be a slight problem, but it was ‘cute’ to see her up there. Using the Tongan lingo when she couldn’t say it in English, or saying “Sapifically” instead of “specifically”.
This particular lady went on to talk about family, and in particular, parenting. Explaining that this was one of the toughest jobs in our modern day World, and how the temptations these days were very different to her temptations growing up as a young girl on the Pacific Island of Tonga. Also, applying rules to children, especially when inside the house of God. I most definitely agree with the temptations that society currently puts out there, readily available for anyone with the money or a fake I.D. However, setting rules for children inside the house of God I am a little confused about.
I’m afraid to think of what kind of World our kids will grow up in. Will the temptations be even more deadly, readily available and used in higher numbers than today? Will my kids go to school and get caught up in the moment and forget the important values and morals that we will set from a young age? I don’t see temptations being a huge problem for us. Both Melodie and I share a unique bond with each other. An amount of love from the heart that I have never once experienced between other couples. And, I know that we will have even more love and care towards our kids to ensure they do not take up those temptations. However, as it is vastly known, no one is perfect. We are human and we will make mistakes. I already know, even before I have kids, that they too will make mistakes. It is a fundamental part of growing up. I do know, also, that our kids will learn from their mistakes as Melodie and I have both experienced as individuals, and also as a united couple.
Whether or not we should set rules for kids inside the house of God, or for anywhere else for that matter, is another thing to me. I will obviously set rules and boundaries. And punishment will be served where there is blatant disrespect for those rules. However, what this one lady was talking about the kids of the Church running around and paying no attention whatsoever. I thought back to my own childhood, and what I was like as a kid. I was the first one to lose attention and have the need to be outdoors and explore. I think it’s healthy for kids to live that way, to have fun and to be mischievous while they can. The important part, to me, is that they have grown up in that environment with the Lord, friends and family around them. When they are at an age, and they are ready to sit down and listen throughout the whole session, then they will. And, they will already feel that sense of belonging and love in the Church which will, in the long run, make going to Church that extra bit enjoyable. Keeping in mind, this is how I feel. Your opinions may differ -)
Last, but not least (I’m saving the least for last), a final speaker from the USA. An older gentleman who, according to Paul, was “filthy rich” and “owned a number of hotels in the States”. Unlike the other speakers, this man walked to the mic with authority and a sense of being a dictator- this is how it is, like it or leave it. I was very much mistaken and will never judge a book by its cover again.
This man was humble, yet so emotional that you could see his belief was in every word he spoke. He paused after almost every paragraph to fight back the tears. He spoke to us about what he saw in the young men of the Church. The service they give during Sacrament and their dedication to the Church, its Scriptures and the Holy Father and his son. It was touching to look around and see the young men of the Church and to know what good people they are.
He went on to talk to eternal life and what that meant to him. The temptations, again, that face us every day and the strength and courage we need to ensure our eternal life.
Eternal Life- I paused for a moment, still listening to him… And, myself. Eternal life was something which I had discussed with Paul, the Elders and most recently, Melodie as we read 1 Nephi 8. Obviously, the term had been used and I had briefly thought about what it meant. But I never took the time to think about what it means TO ME. My apologies to the gentleman who was giving his testimony, but I zoned out. I didn’t hear the babies crying or the kids playing. I didn’t hear the people whispering, or the mobile phones. I heard me. What was eternal life to me?
The time I have spent with Melodie has, by far, been the highlight of my life. No question. And, with the road ahead of us, so many years, it’s also no time at all. As we go to work and work on our individual projects, time seems to fly on by. Eternal Life… But, what if it didn’t have to end with death. What if I could live on and share that time with my family, my friends and with Melodie too. With that in mind, what would I give up for eternal life? Better yet, what would I give up for $1000? I’d give up a lot of things, but not everything. For eternal life with the people I love, and hold in my heart, I would give up EVERYTHING. I would give up the clothes on my back, the money in my account, the roof over my head. All of those are much lower on my priority list than the people that mean the most to me. Now, I am not looking at it in a selfish way oh “Oh goodie, I can live forever”. No. I am looking at this from the point of view that we can all live forever and continue to share new experiences with the ones we love. That is what is important to me. That is what eternal life is to me.
Remember when I said I was saving the least till last? It’s the hymns. Now, keep in mind that I am used to attending Church with Melodie. A lady whose life is practically run by music and singing (straight after Church, of course). When I hear her sing on stage, at home or in Church, it sends chills down my spine. Unfortunately, I sat with Paul today. Not the most soulful singer around. Ha-ha
But seriously, I am used to attending mass back at school with 1100 other boys at school. Hymns, to us, were a competition to see who could be the loudest. Hearing the hymns sung today was refreshing to hear them done well.
With the final prayer said, I was reluctantly out of the door. I would have loved to have stayed but my time was done for today. Not to mention I still had to move house. All in all, my first real experience of Church is something that I will not forget. The peace, the love, the homeliness. It all felt so natural. A weird sensation I have been having lately – Natural.
Today's experience brought out a lot of nerves. As I have said before (again), by not being a member, I felt very intimidated. I felt welcomed, but at the same time, I didn't.
I had organized a ride with Paul, a member of the Church, and he was set to pick me up at 8:45 for a 9am start. Knowing that his 'late entrance' style was something to be weary of, I waited around until 9:15am. Finally he rocked up and we set off to add another chapter to my blog!!
When we reached the Harbord Ward, they were in the middle of sacrament. The Elders were at the entrance to greet us and we waited outside until sacrament was over. While it was going on, we whispered under our breath to each other. Mainly at the expense of Paul and his lack of strength when it comes to moving houses, ha-ha!
Sacrament finished and we went inside to sit. Paul went to the first door (at the front of the chapel), and I kind of wandered to the back and I said, "Where are you going man?” he said "Come sit in here!" Obviously I had been told. We went in and sat about 4 rows from the front! Not where I was hoping we'd sit, but I was cool with that. As I walked in, Bishop Wolfgramm (The man who married me and Melodie) acknowledged my presence with a smile and a nod of the head. To me that was a good sign of Welcoming and Acceptance. As well as a friendly 'Hello'. Immediately, I felt comfortable. I wasn't the Member's boyfriend/husband who was dragged along to Church. Instead, I was the Member's Husband who took it upon himself to make the effort to appreciate what she held so close to her. That was a feeling like no other!
Being that today is Sunday, September 27, 2009, today was the day that Member’s of the Church share with other’s their ‘knowing’ of the Book of Mormon and the words of God- Their testament.
Because we arrived late, we walked in to a talk given by a young (maybe 15 year old) girl. She was explaining the dress-code of the Mormon Church. As Melodie can tell you, the ‘old’ me would make fun of her ‘pregnant ladies’ dresses and her dress sense in general. This was obviously from my own ignorance. This young girl also went on to speak of, but not in length, grooming styles. What not to wear, how not to have your hair. So on and so forth. For me, the understanding that I took away is as follows: The idea behind our bodies being a temple exists from the belief that, before we were born into these bodies, we were once children of God, in spirit form. The temple is to be treated just like that! Would you walk into a physical temple with a bottle of alcohol? Would you walk in under the influence of drugs? Would you walk into a temple showing as much skin as possible, or with tight fitting clothes? No, of course you wouldn’t as that would be greatly disrespectful. So, why would YOU treat YOUR OWN TEMPLE with the same disregard to respect? Your temple must be sacred to your spirit. At this time, I think of materialistic things I hold/held close to me. The best example I can think of is back in my younger days when I first started driving and bought my first car. That car represented freedom to me. To be able to go wherever I liked, whenever I liked. I had certain rules about my car. There was to be no smoking in the car as this led to a crusty, stale smell which I did not want. The car was to be checked regularly in regards to the engine, the tires et cetera. The fuel type used was to be the highest quality to ensure optimal performance. These are just a few examples.
Once getting out of the car, I would light a cigarette, and eat McDonalds. Not necessarily in that order. But that, alone, is something which came to me at that point today. If I’m willing to treat my most prized possession in that fashion, then why not my temple?
I can see why I was hanging off the every word that everyone said today. Why? Because, unlike the other times I had come to Church, today I understood it. It was meaning something to me. It was creating questions inside of me that I had never before thought of asking. I mean, this is the most basic stuff told to me by everyday members. I was definitely getting something out of it.
The second speaker was an older lady of Tongan descent. I couldn’t help but think of how she reminded me of so many older Polynesians I have met. The language barrier still deems to be a slight problem, but it was ‘cute’ to see her up there. Using the Tongan lingo when she couldn’t say it in English, or saying “Sapifically” instead of “specifically”.
This particular lady went on to talk about family, and in particular, parenting. Explaining that this was one of the toughest jobs in our modern day World, and how the temptations these days were very different to her temptations growing up as a young girl on the Pacific Island of Tonga. Also, applying rules to children, especially when inside the house of God. I most definitely agree with the temptations that society currently puts out there, readily available for anyone with the money or a fake I.D. However, setting rules for children inside the house of God I am a little confused about.
I’m afraid to think of what kind of World our kids will grow up in. Will the temptations be even more deadly, readily available and used in higher numbers than today? Will my kids go to school and get caught up in the moment and forget the important values and morals that we will set from a young age? I don’t see temptations being a huge problem for us. Both Melodie and I share a unique bond with each other. An amount of love from the heart that I have never once experienced between other couples. And, I know that we will have even more love and care towards our kids to ensure they do not take up those temptations. However, as it is vastly known, no one is perfect. We are human and we will make mistakes. I already know, even before I have kids, that they too will make mistakes. It is a fundamental part of growing up. I do know, also, that our kids will learn from their mistakes as Melodie and I have both experienced as individuals, and also as a united couple.
Whether or not we should set rules for kids inside the house of God, or for anywhere else for that matter, is another thing to me. I will obviously set rules and boundaries. And punishment will be served where there is blatant disrespect for those rules. However, what this one lady was talking about the kids of the Church running around and paying no attention whatsoever. I thought back to my own childhood, and what I was like as a kid. I was the first one to lose attention and have the need to be outdoors and explore. I think it’s healthy for kids to live that way, to have fun and to be mischievous while they can. The important part, to me, is that they have grown up in that environment with the Lord, friends and family around them. When they are at an age, and they are ready to sit down and listen throughout the whole session, then they will. And, they will already feel that sense of belonging and love in the Church which will, in the long run, make going to Church that extra bit enjoyable. Keeping in mind, this is how I feel. Your opinions may differ -)
Last, but not least (I’m saving the least for last), a final speaker from the USA. An older gentleman who, according to Paul, was “filthy rich” and “owned a number of hotels in the States”. Unlike the other speakers, this man walked to the mic with authority and a sense of being a dictator- this is how it is, like it or leave it. I was very much mistaken and will never judge a book by its cover again.
This man was humble, yet so emotional that you could see his belief was in every word he spoke. He paused after almost every paragraph to fight back the tears. He spoke to us about what he saw in the young men of the Church. The service they give during Sacrament and their dedication to the Church, its Scriptures and the Holy Father and his son. It was touching to look around and see the young men of the Church and to know what good people they are.
He went on to talk to eternal life and what that meant to him. The temptations, again, that face us every day and the strength and courage we need to ensure our eternal life.
Eternal Life- I paused for a moment, still listening to him… And, myself. Eternal life was something which I had discussed with Paul, the Elders and most recently, Melodie as we read 1 Nephi 8. Obviously, the term had been used and I had briefly thought about what it meant. But I never took the time to think about what it means TO ME. My apologies to the gentleman who was giving his testimony, but I zoned out. I didn’t hear the babies crying or the kids playing. I didn’t hear the people whispering, or the mobile phones. I heard me. What was eternal life to me?
The time I have spent with Melodie has, by far, been the highlight of my life. No question. And, with the road ahead of us, so many years, it’s also no time at all. As we go to work and work on our individual projects, time seems to fly on by. Eternal Life… But, what if it didn’t have to end with death. What if I could live on and share that time with my family, my friends and with Melodie too. With that in mind, what would I give up for eternal life? Better yet, what would I give up for $1000? I’d give up a lot of things, but not everything. For eternal life with the people I love, and hold in my heart, I would give up EVERYTHING. I would give up the clothes on my back, the money in my account, the roof over my head. All of those are much lower on my priority list than the people that mean the most to me. Now, I am not looking at it in a selfish way oh “Oh goodie, I can live forever”. No. I am looking at this from the point of view that we can all live forever and continue to share new experiences with the ones we love. That is what is important to me. That is what eternal life is to me.
Remember when I said I was saving the least till last? It’s the hymns. Now, keep in mind that I am used to attending Church with Melodie. A lady whose life is practically run by music and singing (straight after Church, of course). When I hear her sing on stage, at home or in Church, it sends chills down my spine. Unfortunately, I sat with Paul today. Not the most soulful singer around. Ha-ha
But seriously, I am used to attending mass back at school with 1100 other boys at school. Hymns, to us, were a competition to see who could be the loudest. Hearing the hymns sung today was refreshing to hear them done well.
With the final prayer said, I was reluctantly out of the door. I would have loved to have stayed but my time was done for today. Not to mention I still had to move house. All in all, my first real experience of Church is something that I will not forget. The peace, the love, the homeliness. It all felt so natural. A weird sensation I have been having lately – Natural.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
The Book of Mormon- Another Testament of Jesus Christ
I have been made aware by a few people to take precious notice of the title of this book. The Book of Mormon - Another Testament of Jesus Christ.
My apologies if I make too many references to previous posts, mainly the first- "Why I am doing this". I mentioned that I would not listen to hearsay from people that weren't in a position to tell me about 'LDS'. What I failed to mention was that I did have a discussion recently with someone about religion. The Mormon religion came up and I was told that it was ridiculous. The reasons behind this person's ignorant opinion came from the fact that, while translating the plates to paper, Martin Harris pleaded with Joseph Smith to take the papers back to his family to show them. Joseph prayed and prayed asking God to grant Martin's wish. Finally, God gave in and Joseph told Martin that he was allowed to take the 116 pages back to his family.
Unfortunately, the inevitable happened and Martin lost the 116 translated pages, which was a huge lesson for Joseph and Martin. The Holy Father knows best.
Anyway, because the pages were translated again, it turned out that the second translation was different to the first, hence, this particular person thought it to be ridiculous...
... You wanna know what's really ridiculous?
This person got their information from the controversial cartoon, 'South Park'... Go figure!?
Back to the topic at hand. Another testament of Jesus Christ. I'm glad this was brought to my attention, because I did not notice this when staring at the book's cover. I saw the words, but it didn't click until brought to my attention. I know the Bible is the word of the Lord. And, I know that Joseph Smith came to add the Book of Mormon. As it was explained to me, in court, two articles of evidence far outweighs having only one article of evidence. In other words, the Book of Mormon is extra evidence to back up the primary evidence- the Bible.
To my surprise, I have quickly learned quite a bit of the Old English. As a friend, Paul, said "Mate, it's English, it's not that hard!" (Haha). Also, the scriptures I have read thus far have been extremely powerful and applicable to day-to-day life.
1 Nephi 1
The first scripture that I was able to share with Melodie. Nephi recounts the stories of his Father, Lehi. Having prayed, a vision came to Lehi. It was the Holy Father explaining the need for Jerusalem to be destroyed along with the inhabitants due to their wickedness and abomination. Nephi continues his story and goes on to says how Lehi shares the prophesy of his vision to the those of Jerusalem. Obviously, they react to what they hear, and they turn on Lehi and his family as they had in the past, casting out, stoning and slaying.
For me, this story relates to knowing the truth at whatever cost. In order to repent and to change your ways, you must first have to listen and find out one's own faults. Secondly, you must accept what faults you do have have make the decision to change them before it's "too late".
3 Nephi 11
Another powerful scripture from the third book of Nephi. This is a scripture which, to me, was very enlightening to the reasons behind the atonement of Jesus and also baptism.
A crowd was gathered and Jesus descended from above. He did not stay 'above the rest'. He came down to ground level and stood amongst the people.
Jesus speaks to the crowd and explains that he is the one that the prophets testify of. He goes on to explain that it was he who took the pain and suffering for all of mankind from the beginning (And I have drunk out of that bitter cup which the Father hath given me, and I have glorified the Father in taking upon me the sins of the World 3 Nephi 11:11).
Jesus calls upon the crowd to touch and to feel the scars from what the nails and 'torture' had done to his body. The crowd did so, and immediately dropped to worship Jesus.
He called upon Nephi, and gave him the power to baptize those who wanted to repent against their sins. But, only to those who wanted to sincerely repent.
In doing so, the one being baptized will, in theory, become like a child and be taken back into the Kingdom of God.
Again, a very powerful and enlightening scripture aimed to educate me in the reason, or the need for baptism. It's all good and well to say "Today, I'm going to change my ways". It's a lot more to say that, but also to action it through the process of Baptism, under the watchful eyes of the Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost.
Alma 34
There must be an atonement made, or else all mankind must unavoidably perish Alma 34:9
This sincere passage of scripture relates to the atonement in regards to 'The Law of Moses'. This refers to the sacrifice of high-priority, personal object given up for the Lord himself. Jesus was a sacrifice for all of mankind. He took on a lifetime of pain for each and every person, and, I feel that we are forever in his debt because of that. The sacrifice of Jesus is infinite and eternal. As a result of this Sacrifice, the Holy Father asked for repentance in return in the form of prayer. Not only prayer for one's own welfare, or the welfare of those close to them. Instead, these prayers must come in all shapes and sizes so to speak. From professional life, to the lives of your closest enemies, as well as guidance and the finding of truth through the Book of Mormon.
Not only have I incorporated prayer into my life before I go to bed, but I have also made it a necessity to begin my day. Personally, I find prayer to be not only refreshing, but comforting too. In the example of being physically separated from my wife, I feel comfort knowing that I have included her in 'a private talk' with God, and that I have done what I can from my physical spot to help 'watch over her'. It is a simple, yet, effective way to feel at peace. For me, anyway!
1 Nephi 8
By far, the most rewarding passage I have read to date! The tree of life, otherwise known as eternal life. The thought of eternal life won't stop me living my current, physical life as I am at the moment. But, it does cause a lot of joy and excitement, believing that not only do can I spend the next 30, 50, 80 years with those I keep closest, but, I could have them in my life for all eternity.
The symbols used in this passage were quite difficult to decipher. Thanks to Melodie for, firstly sharing this passage with me, but also helping me to understand it to its fullest.
I believe I am on my way down the stair from the building across the way. I saw nothing but darkness and knew that I had fallen off the right track. My hand is out there and I am expecting to feel the rod in my hands any time now. But, I will not thrash my hand around in the air searching for this rod. I will take my time and reach out, and I will wait for the rod to be placed in my hands. From there, I will hold on with all my might and not sway from the word of the Gospel. Nor will i let go.
I have put my all into this and will definitely feel the negative effects if I do let go.
These scriptures mentioned above are only a few of what is in the Book of Mormon and the only ones I'm yet to read. I have already taken so much out of it! Bring on tomorrow!
My apologies if I make too many references to previous posts, mainly the first- "Why I am doing this". I mentioned that I would not listen to hearsay from people that weren't in a position to tell me about 'LDS'. What I failed to mention was that I did have a discussion recently with someone about religion. The Mormon religion came up and I was told that it was ridiculous. The reasons behind this person's ignorant opinion came from the fact that, while translating the plates to paper, Martin Harris pleaded with Joseph Smith to take the papers back to his family to show them. Joseph prayed and prayed asking God to grant Martin's wish. Finally, God gave in and Joseph told Martin that he was allowed to take the 116 pages back to his family.
Unfortunately, the inevitable happened and Martin lost the 116 translated pages, which was a huge lesson for Joseph and Martin. The Holy Father knows best.
Anyway, because the pages were translated again, it turned out that the second translation was different to the first, hence, this particular person thought it to be ridiculous...
... You wanna know what's really ridiculous?
This person got their information from the controversial cartoon, 'South Park'... Go figure!?
Back to the topic at hand. Another testament of Jesus Christ. I'm glad this was brought to my attention, because I did not notice this when staring at the book's cover. I saw the words, but it didn't click until brought to my attention. I know the Bible is the word of the Lord. And, I know that Joseph Smith came to add the Book of Mormon. As it was explained to me, in court, two articles of evidence far outweighs having only one article of evidence. In other words, the Book of Mormon is extra evidence to back up the primary evidence- the Bible.
To my surprise, I have quickly learned quite a bit of the Old English. As a friend, Paul, said "Mate, it's English, it's not that hard!" (Haha). Also, the scriptures I have read thus far have been extremely powerful and applicable to day-to-day life.
1 Nephi 1
The first scripture that I was able to share with Melodie. Nephi recounts the stories of his Father, Lehi. Having prayed, a vision came to Lehi. It was the Holy Father explaining the need for Jerusalem to be destroyed along with the inhabitants due to their wickedness and abomination. Nephi continues his story and goes on to says how Lehi shares the prophesy of his vision to the those of Jerusalem. Obviously, they react to what they hear, and they turn on Lehi and his family as they had in the past, casting out, stoning and slaying.
For me, this story relates to knowing the truth at whatever cost. In order to repent and to change your ways, you must first have to listen and find out one's own faults. Secondly, you must accept what faults you do have have make the decision to change them before it's "too late".
3 Nephi 11
Another powerful scripture from the third book of Nephi. This is a scripture which, to me, was very enlightening to the reasons behind the atonement of Jesus and also baptism.
A crowd was gathered and Jesus descended from above. He did not stay 'above the rest'. He came down to ground level and stood amongst the people.
Jesus speaks to the crowd and explains that he is the one that the prophets testify of. He goes on to explain that it was he who took the pain and suffering for all of mankind from the beginning (And I have drunk out of that bitter cup which the Father hath given me, and I have glorified the Father in taking upon me the sins of the World 3 Nephi 11:11).
Jesus calls upon the crowd to touch and to feel the scars from what the nails and 'torture' had done to his body. The crowd did so, and immediately dropped to worship Jesus.
He called upon Nephi, and gave him the power to baptize those who wanted to repent against their sins. But, only to those who wanted to sincerely repent.
In doing so, the one being baptized will, in theory, become like a child and be taken back into the Kingdom of God.
Again, a very powerful and enlightening scripture aimed to educate me in the reason, or the need for baptism. It's all good and well to say "Today, I'm going to change my ways". It's a lot more to say that, but also to action it through the process of Baptism, under the watchful eyes of the Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost.
Alma 34
There must be an atonement made, or else all mankind must unavoidably perish Alma 34:9
This sincere passage of scripture relates to the atonement in regards to 'The Law of Moses'. This refers to the sacrifice of high-priority, personal object given up for the Lord himself. Jesus was a sacrifice for all of mankind. He took on a lifetime of pain for each and every person, and, I feel that we are forever in his debt because of that. The sacrifice of Jesus is infinite and eternal. As a result of this Sacrifice, the Holy Father asked for repentance in return in the form of prayer. Not only prayer for one's own welfare, or the welfare of those close to them. Instead, these prayers must come in all shapes and sizes so to speak. From professional life, to the lives of your closest enemies, as well as guidance and the finding of truth through the Book of Mormon.
Not only have I incorporated prayer into my life before I go to bed, but I have also made it a necessity to begin my day. Personally, I find prayer to be not only refreshing, but comforting too. In the example of being physically separated from my wife, I feel comfort knowing that I have included her in 'a private talk' with God, and that I have done what I can from my physical spot to help 'watch over her'. It is a simple, yet, effective way to feel at peace. For me, anyway!
1 Nephi 8
By far, the most rewarding passage I have read to date! The tree of life, otherwise known as eternal life. The thought of eternal life won't stop me living my current, physical life as I am at the moment. But, it does cause a lot of joy and excitement, believing that not only do can I spend the next 30, 50, 80 years with those I keep closest, but, I could have them in my life for all eternity.
The symbols used in this passage were quite difficult to decipher. Thanks to Melodie for, firstly sharing this passage with me, but also helping me to understand it to its fullest.
I believe I am on my way down the stair from the building across the way. I saw nothing but darkness and knew that I had fallen off the right track. My hand is out there and I am expecting to feel the rod in my hands any time now. But, I will not thrash my hand around in the air searching for this rod. I will take my time and reach out, and I will wait for the rod to be placed in my hands. From there, I will hold on with all my might and not sway from the word of the Gospel. Nor will i let go.
I have put my all into this and will definitely feel the negative effects if I do let go.
These scriptures mentioned above are only a few of what is in the Book of Mormon and the only ones I'm yet to read. I have already taken so much out of it! Bring on tomorrow!
Friday, September 25, 2009
Teachings of the Presidents.
As mentioned previously, learning about religion was just that at a young age. All it was portrayed as was another subject at school that had to be sat through for XX minutes a week. There was no real excitement about it, nor was I in an environment to enjoy it.
I am taking my time this time. I want to know and understand as much as possible to phase out the most 'grey' areas I possibly can.
I decided to start with the "Teachings of the Presidents" as a starting point. I have found this to be very useful. The benefits far outweigh my own research through the internet, or people who may think they have some understanding, but in reality- they don't!
The book begins with a detailed year-by-year account of the Prophet, Joseph Smith. Joseph was born fifth child of eleven into a loving and caring family. The family had relocated from Sharon, Windsor Country, Vermont to Palmyra, NY, where they lived on 100-acres of farm land. Joseph received the bare minimum of formal education, however, helped out with the crop work as much as he could.
Much confusion surrounded Joseph in regards to religion, his beliefs and faith. I think there are many people out there who are starting off in the position, and mindframe, as I am currently in. Personally, I can relate my life to much of what Joseph is feeling. The confusion, the unanswered questions and the lack of direction.
Much like Joseph, I too have parents that share different religions. One grew up in a far more religious environment than the other. Nevertheless, both religions share similar beliefs, morals etc. But were different in so many ways. For example, My Mother wanted so badly to be married in a Catholic Church, but my Father wanted to marry in his. Again, both shared many similar beliefs and values, but differed in exceptional ways.
However, unlike Joseph, I never had that burning desire to know. To REALLY look far and wide and know! Joseph came upon a particular scripture-
"If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and unbraideth not; and it shall be given to him" (James 1:5)
This scripture- simple, yet, powerful- can easily be applied to anyone's life in any aspect, providing you are asking with:
A/ A sincere heart, and;
B/ Complete intent.
Basically, if it's something you are determined to know, then you can find the answer. Or, rather, the answer can and will be provided to you from the hands of the Lord.
One day whilst praying in the woods near his house in Palmyra, NY, Joseph did pray with a sincere heart and complete intent. Joseph had a vision of the Holy Father and his Son, Jesus Christ. When Joseph asked for direction in which Church he should join, He was given the answer "They are all wrong."
This is an answer that confused me beyond explanation. It was so blunt, and to the point. However, I have now come to understand it thanks to my friends Elder Lord and Elder Modlik. In the most simple form, to my understanding, Jesus had come to this Earth and started the Church as a whole. He built it upon 5 basic fundamentals, such as:
1/ The corner-stone, Jesus Christ.
2/ Prophets.
3/ Apostles.
4/ Priesthood.
5/ Revelation.
Many things came after this which made the Church a whole. One Church. After the Atonement, and suffering that Jesus had been through, the Church collapsed. People had lost their guidance. After a while, people had the urge to regain that faith and direction. New Churches were built and taught. All of them follow a handful of what the Church was inteded to be (EXAMPLE: One may believe in Jesus Christ, the other Prayer and Apostles and the third Priesthood and revelation /EXAMPLE). So, in essence, no they are not "Wrong", but they are not entirely "Right".
Joseph was told by Jesus, and the Prophet Moroni, how to go about correcting the Church, and bringing back all the fundamentals and moreso to the Church of what was originally intended by Jesus Christ. You see, over the thousands and thousands of times the Bible has been translated since its original language, scribes have either taken out, or changed what the Bible had originally said so that it would "Make more sense". In doing so, the Bible had lost a lot of the 'meat' it originally had.
Joseph's mission in life was to rectify the missing parts of the Bible. He did this through a series of visions.
However, the one thing that really got me thinking was from the History of Joeseph Smith. After his first vision with the Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, he went back home and recounted what he had seen to his Father. His Father could have simply replied with a generic, non-caring answer ("It was a dream" "It was your imagination" etc.). Instead, he replied with, "It is the work of God". The excitement, joy and sincerity must have been great enough to convince his own Father that what he had seen, was in fact a vision, and nothing else.
As I mentioned in my previous (First) post. I went into this journey to gain an understanding. Having read of the above mentioned, that was the main point that got me leaning towards my belief and my faith.
I believe I have done the right thing by, not only reading the Book of Mormon, but also reading the Teachings of the Presidents at the same time. It has helped me to understand it from the beginning, and also, to reinforce what I learn each and every day.
Tomorrow is more exciting than today. I not only learn new things tomorrow, but I can reflect on what I have learned today!
I am taking my time this time. I want to know and understand as much as possible to phase out the most 'grey' areas I possibly can.
I decided to start with the "Teachings of the Presidents" as a starting point. I have found this to be very useful. The benefits far outweigh my own research through the internet, or people who may think they have some understanding, but in reality- they don't!
The book begins with a detailed year-by-year account of the Prophet, Joseph Smith. Joseph was born fifth child of eleven into a loving and caring family. The family had relocated from Sharon, Windsor Country, Vermont to Palmyra, NY, where they lived on 100-acres of farm land. Joseph received the bare minimum of formal education, however, helped out with the crop work as much as he could.
Much confusion surrounded Joseph in regards to religion, his beliefs and faith. I think there are many people out there who are starting off in the position, and mindframe, as I am currently in. Personally, I can relate my life to much of what Joseph is feeling. The confusion, the unanswered questions and the lack of direction.
Much like Joseph, I too have parents that share different religions. One grew up in a far more religious environment than the other. Nevertheless, both religions share similar beliefs, morals etc. But were different in so many ways. For example, My Mother wanted so badly to be married in a Catholic Church, but my Father wanted to marry in his. Again, both shared many similar beliefs and values, but differed in exceptional ways.
However, unlike Joseph, I never had that burning desire to know. To REALLY look far and wide and know! Joseph came upon a particular scripture-
"If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and unbraideth not; and it shall be given to him" (James 1:5)
This scripture- simple, yet, powerful- can easily be applied to anyone's life in any aspect, providing you are asking with:
A/ A sincere heart, and;
B/ Complete intent.
Basically, if it's something you are determined to know, then you can find the answer. Or, rather, the answer can and will be provided to you from the hands of the Lord.
One day whilst praying in the woods near his house in Palmyra, NY, Joseph did pray with a sincere heart and complete intent. Joseph had a vision of the Holy Father and his Son, Jesus Christ. When Joseph asked for direction in which Church he should join, He was given the answer "They are all wrong."
This is an answer that confused me beyond explanation. It was so blunt, and to the point. However, I have now come to understand it thanks to my friends Elder Lord and Elder Modlik. In the most simple form, to my understanding, Jesus had come to this Earth and started the Church as a whole. He built it upon 5 basic fundamentals, such as:
1/ The corner-stone, Jesus Christ.
2/ Prophets.
3/ Apostles.
4/ Priesthood.
5/ Revelation.
Many things came after this which made the Church a whole. One Church. After the Atonement, and suffering that Jesus had been through, the Church collapsed. People had lost their guidance. After a while, people had the urge to regain that faith and direction. New Churches were built and taught. All of them follow a handful of what the Church was inteded to be (EXAMPLE: One may believe in Jesus Christ, the other Prayer and Apostles and the third Priesthood and revelation /EXAMPLE). So, in essence, no they are not "Wrong", but they are not entirely "Right".
Joseph was told by Jesus, and the Prophet Moroni, how to go about correcting the Church, and bringing back all the fundamentals and moreso to the Church of what was originally intended by Jesus Christ. You see, over the thousands and thousands of times the Bible has been translated since its original language, scribes have either taken out, or changed what the Bible had originally said so that it would "Make more sense". In doing so, the Bible had lost a lot of the 'meat' it originally had.
Joseph's mission in life was to rectify the missing parts of the Bible. He did this through a series of visions.
However, the one thing that really got me thinking was from the History of Joeseph Smith. After his first vision with the Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, he went back home and recounted what he had seen to his Father. His Father could have simply replied with a generic, non-caring answer ("It was a dream" "It was your imagination" etc.). Instead, he replied with, "It is the work of God". The excitement, joy and sincerity must have been great enough to convince his own Father that what he had seen, was in fact a vision, and nothing else.
As I mentioned in my previous (First) post. I went into this journey to gain an understanding. Having read of the above mentioned, that was the main point that got me leaning towards my belief and my faith.
I believe I have done the right thing by, not only reading the Book of Mormon, but also reading the Teachings of the Presidents at the same time. It has helped me to understand it from the beginning, and also, to reinforce what I learn each and every day.
Tomorrow is more exciting than today. I not only learn new things tomorrow, but I can reflect on what I have learned today!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Why Am I Doing This...?
Now, I would like to clarify- I am not a huge religious person by nature, nor, am I a blogger. However, I would like to share the coming experience(s) with anyone that's willing to listen!
Two years ago, if you had of asked me whether or not I believed in God, I would thought long and hard about how I really feel, and more than likely, said 'no'.
Deep down inside, my guts would be churning and my heart rate increasing, because, I wasn't sure if that's how I REALLY felt. Like some people, I learn best when I am presented with fact and, if possible, something tangible to feel and to use. Not having these things in my possession left me feeling very confused and unanswered, so religion was pushed to the back of my mind.
At this point in time, as a young 22 year old Australian male, I have the World in my hands and I hold strong values and morals. Yes, I have made mistakes throughout my life, but I am human and lucky enough to have learned from my mistakes to never have to relive them again.
Through a number of odd circumstances, I came to work on a cruise ship as a Fitness Director. Strangely enough, this is where I met my Wife. A lady so intriguing, intelligent and beautiful inside and out. I remember vividly the times we spent together early in our relationship getting to know one another. Learning of her upbringing, her wonderful Mom and her 3 beautiful sisters. In the early days, religion wasn't a strong topic between us. In fact, I remember one of the crew members informing me about her religion saying "Man, I think she's Mormon."
At that stage, I wasn't too sure how to approach things. From a nonreligious, uneducated point of view, Mormons to me were 'The people that come knocking on your door,' and not much more than that.
Nevertheless, I have never been one to judge people based on their religion, faith or beliefs. I have always believed them to be sacred to individuals and have respected people's decisions in what they choose or choose not to believe.
We had our talks here and there about each of our beliefs, but I still wasn't sure what it was that I believed in. A few months later, we went our separate ways. As I left the ship on the second day of 2008, Melodie gave me a gift, along with a handwritten letter. The gift was The Book of Mormon. Her letter went on to explain the importance of her beliefs and her faith and just how much they really meant to her.
I will admit, as I have to her, that when I tried to read The Book of Mormon, it didn't quite work out. Oh I probably tried a handful of times, but I didn't have the desire to read it for a number of reasons.
Melodie and I met up again in mid-2008 when she moved out to my Country for a year. By May 2009, we had the most beautiful wedding under the guidance of Bishop Wolfgramm of the Mormon Church. I had attended a couple of Church session and although I didn't necessarily gain anything from it at the time, I did find a sense of peace within the temple, as well as community and family.
I think these are the things that initially wooed me away as it was quite intimidating for someone not associated directly with the Church. Still, knowing I would be with this Woman for the rest of my life, I have now taken it upon myself to learn and to fully understand The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
At this stage, I'm still not too sure what I will get out of this Journey, but I do know whatever it is, it will bring nothing but the utmost of positiveness to my life and our lives as a couple.
What I do know, however, is that since beginning this journey to 'understand', I find myself already wanting more than that. Having spent the last 5 days reading "Teachings of the Presidents of the Church" and "The Book of Mormon" along with lengthy chats with Church members, Church Elders, and my beautiful Wife, I find my days are becoming increasingly more worthwhile as I ponder what I have learnt so far and how I can adapt my new found knowledge into my life.
Two years ago, if you had of asked me whether or not I believed in God, I would thought long and hard about how I really feel, and more than likely, said 'no'.
Deep down inside, my guts would be churning and my heart rate increasing, because, I wasn't sure if that's how I REALLY felt. Like some people, I learn best when I am presented with fact and, if possible, something tangible to feel and to use. Not having these things in my possession left me feeling very confused and unanswered, so religion was pushed to the back of my mind.
At this point in time, as a young 22 year old Australian male, I have the World in my hands and I hold strong values and morals. Yes, I have made mistakes throughout my life, but I am human and lucky enough to have learned from my mistakes to never have to relive them again.
Through a number of odd circumstances, I came to work on a cruise ship as a Fitness Director. Strangely enough, this is where I met my Wife. A lady so intriguing, intelligent and beautiful inside and out. I remember vividly the times we spent together early in our relationship getting to know one another. Learning of her upbringing, her wonderful Mom and her 3 beautiful sisters. In the early days, religion wasn't a strong topic between us. In fact, I remember one of the crew members informing me about her religion saying "Man, I think she's Mormon."
At that stage, I wasn't too sure how to approach things. From a nonreligious, uneducated point of view, Mormons to me were 'The people that come knocking on your door,' and not much more than that.
Nevertheless, I have never been one to judge people based on their religion, faith or beliefs. I have always believed them to be sacred to individuals and have respected people's decisions in what they choose or choose not to believe.
We had our talks here and there about each of our beliefs, but I still wasn't sure what it was that I believed in. A few months later, we went our separate ways. As I left the ship on the second day of 2008, Melodie gave me a gift, along with a handwritten letter. The gift was The Book of Mormon. Her letter went on to explain the importance of her beliefs and her faith and just how much they really meant to her.
I will admit, as I have to her, that when I tried to read The Book of Mormon, it didn't quite work out. Oh I probably tried a handful of times, but I didn't have the desire to read it for a number of reasons.
Melodie and I met up again in mid-2008 when she moved out to my Country for a year. By May 2009, we had the most beautiful wedding under the guidance of Bishop Wolfgramm of the Mormon Church. I had attended a couple of Church session and although I didn't necessarily gain anything from it at the time, I did find a sense of peace within the temple, as well as community and family.
I think these are the things that initially wooed me away as it was quite intimidating for someone not associated directly with the Church. Still, knowing I would be with this Woman for the rest of my life, I have now taken it upon myself to learn and to fully understand The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
At this stage, I'm still not too sure what I will get out of this Journey, but I do know whatever it is, it will bring nothing but the utmost of positiveness to my life and our lives as a couple.
What I do know, however, is that since beginning this journey to 'understand', I find myself already wanting more than that. Having spent the last 5 days reading "Teachings of the Presidents of the Church" and "The Book of Mormon" along with lengthy chats with Church members, Church Elders, and my beautiful Wife, I find my days are becoming increasingly more worthwhile as I ponder what I have learnt so far and how I can adapt my new found knowledge into my life.
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